It's been a long time since I actually felt ashamed. I actually can't remember the last time I felt this way.

I've always felt this way with her. As if she is judging me. Well I guess she kind of is. However she has never done anything but assure me that I can do it.

But that's the problem. I don't think I can. So instead of you telling me I can do it, don't worry about it, I need some help instead.

I guess it is because she has the power to take away all the hard work that I have done in the last 2 years.

Some times they just expect too much, you can't help but disapoint them