There was a boy...
A very strange enchanted boy.
They say he wandered very far, very far
Over land and sea,
A little shy and sad of eye
But very wise was he.

And then one day,
One magic day, he passed my way.
And while we spoke of many things,
Fools and kings,
This he said to me,
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return."


*sigh*

No living in town for me this summer. Her basement apartment is really a room in her basement. Oh well... summer will still be good...I will be!

The next two wednesdays I can actually go out. Someone come out with me or I'll scream!

On another note I am going on my own little train trip this summer.

I'm gonna have a big barbecue this summer. Please come...I'll pick you up.

I had a good day today. First day off in a month.

A day of staying too long in bed, twisting the sheets, pancakes, wandering, kisses at red lights, surprises, kitties and laughter.

10 days

A week and a half left. That's it. Then I'm on easy streets. Hanging out with a seven year old for the rest of the summer. Living down town. People will have to come see me though. I get bored... then I get depressed. Only time I've ever been close to depressed is sitting alone in a house with nothing to do. Bordem.

I was sitting at Neptune the other day. I was watching the show. I was sitting right at the end of the center ailse. All of a sudden I had this feeling pour over me. I felt absolutly horrible. I wasn't sure what it was a first. Then I realized what I was feeling.

Isolation.

I have no idea what is going on with anyone else. My world has been full of court dates and perscriptions and probation violations (not mine!) and I have no room for anything else. I have no idea what is going on with you. When is the last time I've had real conversation with one of my friends (I know that answer..Kelly...I love you). I'm scared that I'll be in my own little world all summer and I won't see anything till fall.

I took a deep breath. I had a glass of water. I calmed down.

I long for a day when the house is empty and it is only me (and the dog). I'll stay in my pajamas, crank the stero and sing Kareko as long as I can all by myself.

I think I need that

I've started a new job at the Nova Scotia Hospital. I'm working 40 hrs a week there monday to friday. On top of that i'm working 27 hrs a week at neptune, including all weekend. Yes folks that's 67 hrs a week, 7 days a week.

I'm dead tired....I've almost fallen asleep on the road twice now. Also on my first day at work I hit a parked car. However it looks like it could have been a stolen car so no one has gotten in touch with me about insurance claims and such.

This last saturday, my wallet, along with two other of my co workers' wallets, were stolen right out of your staff room. They only got 20$, but they also got my liscence, my SIN card, my birthcertificate and my health card. In short they have everything they need to steal my identity. So when i'm not working my two jobs i'm trying to cancel my life and get a new one on my time off. However that is very hard to do because Canada is only open till 4:30, and is closed completly on the weekend.

This weekend I go to Newfound land to sit with my 80 year old grandmother in her apartment and try to make small talk.

I'm not having a good week.