being woken up at 4:30 in the morning by your neighbors having very loud sex.

ahhh....the apartment life.

was it really stress? well of course it was, but still....

It would be nice to not be so obsessive for once.

I hurt all over. My back, my arms, my knees, my legs, my neck.

That is the last time I play on the playground. It's dangerous.

Sometimes I feel that I should be singing. That singing is what I should do.
But I know I never will.
Physically (my jaw) it is probably not even plausible.

I had the most vivid dream last night. Everthing was so clear and coherant. I haven't been able to remember a dream like that in months.

I'm not working again today. Which would have been fine since mom lent me the car for the week. However as I was driving it home last night, so I could bring it to my humble abode, the engine light popped on. fucking great, I have a car for the week that is going to have to sit in the driveway the entire time. I know nothing about car, and except for checking the oil or taking it to a mechanic there is nothing I can do to try and figure out what the problem is. And I don't think that taking it to a mechanic is really an option, money wise at least.

grrrr.

That's okay.
I remember everything you sang.

This week was nice. I had four days off in a row. As much as it sucks since it means I'll have a smaller pay check this pay period, it meant that I got to see you guys. It was kinda like before. Movies and dinner. Coming over after you finished work. Eating. . . alot. I've just replaced the booze with pie is all. Hanging out at the CS. Getting free food & drinks. Only this time I'm distracting you from work and not you distracting me from school.

I'm looking forward to going to a new school but it will be weird not being @ dal. Techinically I practically live on campus, however I won't be pasted to the leather seats of the attrium like I had been for the last 4 years. One and a half dates will have to turn double. The tricycle will become a car (or an ATV?).

I'm getting used to being without my family.
I'm getting used to making my own meals.
I'm getting used to being responisble for everything in the apartment because it's all mine and I have to.
I'm getting used to cleaning MY mess all the time.

I'm liking having people to come visit my place
I'm liking being able to relax after a long day of work and not worry about anything else
I'm liking making choices, from simple to big, from what groceries to get to how I'm going to pay the bills.
I'm liking having something that is mine.

But it's not a home yet. It's where I sleep. It's like I'm housesitting. I'm just waiting. Waiting for you to come home so that it be home for me too.

I now have the internet at home!
I also have phone now!

Yay!
I haven't worked in 4 days. I need money!

I've had the last 3 days off in a row. would be great if I knew from the start of the day that I would have it off and not have to wait around half the day to see if they are going to call me in. Though so far each day has been productive and I have spent more money than I needed to. It's okay, I get paid tonight.

I just want to throw out there that I'm very proud of my little sister. She got another movie role which is wonderful. We had a sleepover last night and she made me laugh so hard that I cried. I have to go get her a pillow though, my couch isn't the most comfprtable thing in the world.

Right now I'm not working tonight, and I have a feeling that it isn't going to change.
I'm going to buy some soysauce.

I got called in 10 hours early for work this morning. It means that I'm not doing an over night, but since I got called in for Saturday from 7 till 3 it means I have like 7 hours before I have to wake up between shifts. Then I work 12 hours on sunday. I know you probably don't want to hear how much I'm working but god I'm working a lot. I need to have some fun. Girls night should be good, but I have to work early the next day. I need to have some not think about work at all fun.

The apartment is good. I'm not nervous like I thought I would be. At least not yet. I have a tiny kitchen and an even tinier fridge (which I guess is a given, but I mean it's like mircoscopic). I got groceries the other day, but I haven't been at home to eat any of it, so all my expensive produce is going bad already. I need to get to Bayres lake soon too to return some apartment stuff.

I'm surviving without cable. I'll be happy to get the internet soon though.

Sigh. I'm so tired

There are still unpacked boxes in the apartment. I've decided that you can unpack them. I might hide them away in a closet untill then, or I might not.

I need tea. I'm going to search untill I can find it. I'm going on a misson to find decafe Chai tea.

Work tongiht untill 11. Work overnight tomorrow night. Looks like I'll be sleeping most of the day away for the next two days. I think i'm going to rent "Arrested Development" and have my own little marathon.

miss you. and you.

Not much to say because all I do is work.

I spent all sunday packing. I spent all monday moving (thanks a bunch guys). I was supposed to have the next two days off but I got called in for over time. I work 7am untill 7 pm. It's going to be a very long day. I still need to go get groceries too. I have food but no meals.

The apartment is nice. I got to try out the shower this morning and it was satisfactory. I had a terrible time sleeping last night. Maybe it was because it was too hot, maybe it was not dark enough, maybe because it wasn't my bed, maye it was because I knew I had to work twelve hours today. Who knows.

I think I'm going to be bored a lot.

(you didn't call last night)

Went to the apartment last night to do the inspection and get the keys. Is it bigger or smaller than I remember? I'm not quite sure. Stayed for a little while to try and figure out the furniture situation. What goes here and what goes there. Everything is packed. Just have to clean out the car (which I have used as a locker for the last 4 years). New bathtub and toilet. New fridge. Not too shabby. Two blocks away from work.

Nervous? A little. Things are different now. I have to revise my summer plans.

I'll take pictures so you can see what it looks like in the end.